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This one time I hit another car and some stuff happened. [01 Feb 2008|09:36am]
So I got in my first official car accident the other morning on my way to work.

I got to ride in an ambulance.
It's not as cool as Grey's Anatomy makes it seem.

16 stitches, bruises like woah, and a sprained foot.
Could have been worse though.

See MySpace for details.

Fuck you, Michigan weather.
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[02 Jan 2008|01:48am]
why didn't any of you tell me it'd gotten this bad?
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[13 Nov 2007|01:47am]
God damn it.
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mmm....alright eljay. [12 Sep 2007|02:13am]
The bed bug issue has been solved - - we've got them at the hotel.
Specifically, (and exclusively) room 202 and the laundry room corner.
It's going to be taken care of while I'm out for my surgery...if I come back and those motherfuckers are still around, peace out kids. This hotel job is gone. I value my skin.

Speaking of the surgery, that's on Friday and sweet Jesus I'm nervous...last time it did NOT go well.
This time, however, Megan is going with me, so if nothing else I'll have someone to help me wobble to the car other than my mother on crutches.

I've been sitting here brainstorming uses for empty pringles cans.
I've been sitting here for about 2 hours and came up with about 3 decent ideas.
I called Meredith, got her advice, and she came up with about 15 perfectly useful suggestions in about 2 minutes.
Evidently my creativity is off tonight.

I don't have much else to report...other than SARAH FLATT I STILL MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY and I've been working a whole lot.

I'm nervous about this surgery, yes, but it *is* going to be a nice little vacay after recovery time is up.
10 days off work, bitches. Hoorah!

So yeah, if anyone is in The Roc th 14th-24th, I'll be there, with a Mexican, and we like hangouts.
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new theme song. [15 Aug 2007|04:08am]
I don't know how in all my years of listening to Billy Joel I missed this song...or overlooked it, maybe?
My friend sent me a CD with just "Vienna" on it, and a note that said:

"Billy Joel understands you. Enjoy your new theme song...see you in Europe."

...bottom line here, I heard it for the "first time" tonight and cried for probably close to 20 minutes.

-Billy joel

Slow down you crazy child
You're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you're so smart tell me why
Are you still so afraid?
Where's the fire, what's the hurry about?
You better cool it off before you burn it out
You got so much to do and only
So many hours in a day

But you know that when the truth is told
That you can get what you want
Or you can just get old
You're gonna kick off before you even get halfway through
When will you realize...Vienna waits for you

Slow down you're doing fine
You can't be everything you want to be
Before your time
Although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight (tonight)
Too bad but it's the life you lead
You're so ahead of yourself
That you forgot what you need
Though you can see when you're wrong
You know you can't always see when you're right (you're right)

You got your passion you got your pride
But don't you know that only fools are satisfied?
Dream on but don't imagine they'll all come true
When will you realize
Vienna waits for you

Slow down you crazy child
Take the phone off the hook and disappear for a while
It's alright you can afford to lose a day or two
When will you realize...
Vienna waits for you.

And you know that when the truth is told
That you can get what you want
Or you can just get old
You're gonna kick off before you even get halfway through

Why don't you realize...Vienna waits for you
When will you realize...Vienna waits for you

It's been one of "those months"...loyalty and determination don't get a girl anywhere these days. Now it's all about who you sleep with, what you're wearing, and who you're friends with.

I'm not about my life being made because of the people I know...I want my life to be great because it's supposed to be.
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Well, posting it makes it real...I guess. [18 Jul 2007|06:09am]
Not that anyone reads this, or really will care a whole lot if they do, but, I'm quitting smoking, and trying to cut back on the Diet Coke.

I found out earlier this week that I have a bleeding ulcer caused [mostly] from stress, but smoking and acidic foods/beverages really have helped it along...
I still have my weird aversion to citrus, and can't stand tomatoes, so I know an abundance of acidic fruits and veggies haven't been the issue...and well, I've wanted to quit smoking for a while, just haven't had the determination to do it, and I've kept coming up with excuses.

I tell you, if you cough up enough blood, that's motivation enough to MAKE you determined.

As for cutting back on the stress...I need to work all the jobs that I am, but I'm going to cut some hours at Disney if I can.
I picked Disney because it's an hour away from home, and I'm starting to see the driving time as basically wasted sleeping time.

I won't lie, the Diet Coke isn't going completely away just yet, because if I were to cut out cigarettes AND Diet Coke at the same time, I honestly think I might die.
But, Jennie did help me become slightly addicted to Gatorade (the doctor said to drink it...something about electrolytes and sodium in blood loss? I don't know, make Jennie explain it.)...and I'm actually starting to like the taste of water (provided it's consumed when RIDICULOUSLY cold) so hopefully I'll be able to turn the Diet Coke in to a "once and a while" thing.

We'll see...wish me luck!
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why do i get the crazy people!? this is NOT a low-class hotel!! [17 Jul 2007|04:42am]
i thought we were going to get by with a nice quiet shift for once, but that's simply not the case...I just had to have a guy literally escorted out of the lobby because he was LOOKING AT PORN ON THE GUEST COMPUTER.

i was just standing, typing away at my reports, and i started hearing, um, moans coming off the computer, and so i looked over and THERE WERE NAKED PEOPLE doing things NAKED TOGETHER in their NAKEDNESS on the computer screen.

so i went in the laundry room, called another hotel from my cell phone, asked their worker what the heck i was supposed to do - she sent over our shuttle guy to act as my body guard, and then she told me that i could call the police, because apparently that counts as "incident exposure" and it's illegal to access adult sites from public computers (which the sign above the monitor says in large 18pt. bold font...and sir, if you can Google naked women, you can read the sign!)

the guy just kept looking at the screen, evern after Miguel came in through the door right next to him! siiiiick.

that was frickin' uncomfortable, and i am not checking out that guy's family!!
"I'm sorry ma'am, your husbad left you alone in bed at 2, and was down here watching porn for 2 hours...here is the number to the Kent County Police Department, you can call them to locate your bastard of a husband."


i, personally, had been fortunate enough to never have seen porn until tonight - i guess i knew that people watched it, but i've never actually considered the possiblity i'd be IN THE ROOM while it was going on.


i re-read my job discription.
this is not in it.
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[11 Jul 2007|04:29am]
I'm so tired...and I can't sleep until at the earliest - Friday.

I have to leave here [the hotel] right at 7:30, go let out le pups, and then head to Disney. The only reason I'm not pissed off about being scheduled back-to-back with jobs, is that I get to work with Kimba.

That girl is my sanity.

None of you are going to care about this next section, so just skip it if you want.

Work at the hotel tonight has been crazy...my computers ALL crashed at least once, and then I had a hell of a time authorizing credit cards MANUALLY.
It's extremely difficult to enter in the entire credit card number when the computer only retains the last 4 digits on the screen...so I had to go back through guest files, find the numbers, write them down, enter them, shred the papers I'd written them on...authorize...wait...do it all over again because it didn't work the first time....lather, rinse repeat.
Then I was retarded, and ran an entire credit card batch and audit without bothering to back up the system.
So I had to call my friend Steven at tech support, listen to him make fun of me for being a dumb girl, and have him try and reverse it.

I like Steven at tech support.
He always answers when I call him.
He taps into my system...fixes all which I've f'ed up...he's a great guy.
He understands me when I say "The cord without the hook is in the little black box and the screen is doing that blinky thing where it doesn't work right until it gets a fax sent through."
I don't even know what I mean.
Sigh. Steven at tech support, I think I'm falling in love with you.
I can tell our relationship is going places.

The owner of the hotel called tonight, and the phone had been ringing like crazy, so instead of saying "Country Inn, this is Krissie how can I direct your call?" I answered with: "Country Inn".
He kept saying "Who is this? Who is this?"
(his English isn't super...)
and I kept repeating "Country Inn"....because I thought it was just some idiot with the wrong number....
and then he said "This is Matt - every time you answer you must say your name!"
I apologized...he seemed fine with it, but good lord I felt HORRIBLE.
Because you KNOW I got progressively bitchy-er every time I said "Country Inn..."

This experience was ALMOST as cool as when I answered the phone two nights ago by saying "Thank you for calling the Lansing Mall Disney Store this is Krissie---aw hell I'm sorry! Country Inn!"
...I am the worst employee EVER.
Or perhaps, just over tired.

[end hotel rant]

Tomorrow's forcast:
partly cloudy with an 87% CHANCE OF SARAH FLATT.
I hope we end up getting together.
I cancelled my hair appointment for her.
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[20 Jun 2007|10:24pm]
For those who don't know, the forever blonde hair is now red.
Don't ask why - it's a long, long story. Just accept it.
Now that we've gotten that out of the way:

If it's possible, things are looking up and down and sideways all at the same time.

I got a new job - working 3rd shift at a super nice hotel near our house.
It's not difficult, and I'm getting paid to basically sit and read or play online until 7 in the morning.
It's full time, which is great cash-wise, but I'm super tired. I'm still working 20 hours at Disney every week, and then doing all of Beth's stuff on top of it.

Beth's lia sophia stuff isn't incredibly demanding, it's just important that I get it all done by deadlines.
She doesn't pressure me, and honestly none of it is life or death, I just like to be done right and perfect.
Disney stresses me out only because I have to flipping drive an hour each way.

It's been decided. This growing up stuff is complete crap.
I'm working 3 jobs, finding out if I got one beginning in August on Friday, all to fix finances and be alright when I move out of here...what is that?

Beth doesn't want me working so much, and I understand why, but I also need to make it clear that it's kindof necessary...Lord knows I'd live here forever if I could, but it's just not practical.
Eventually there will be rent again...and soon, a car payment.
That's right, we're saying goodbye to the GUE in the fall.
There will be details posted about the memorial service to be held in his honor, approximately early September.

It's been a great car...gotten me across our country and Canada (a few times), but it's just racking up the miles and hating it...eating up gas like it's going out of style...it's time for my Bug. And while I'm saddened at the loss of our big green friend, I'm excited for the little cute one that will replace him.

More little and cute things:
4 kittens and a mommy cat live in our yard now.
Paris, Nicole, Smokey, Mama and Nibbler (Nibs).
They're precious. I feed them. I love them. It's beautiful.

So yes. There are many animals around this house...7 cats...2 puppies...BJ...

So many things are changing.
I went from one almost full time job, and a part time one, to two part time jobs and a full time job with another part time job on it's way in August.

Is it so bad to not be alright with living paycheck to paycheck?
It's not that I want the ability to buy things on a whim. I honestly want to bank everything that I can.

I just...I had a plan.
And my plan totally hasn't been working out.

Damn it I need something to work out.
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[03 May 2007|12:44am]
It seems like everyone in my graduating class and/or entry freshman class is graduating, and I'm not going to lie, it's incredibly frustrating.
My pride for my friends is there.
But I feel like it's burried under layers of hidden resentment.

I've done my 4 years too.
Theoretically I should be putting on a similar cap and gown and walking across a stage infront of other people's parents and hugging the president of a college I didn't really like.
But that's jus tit.
I didn't like it.
And I didn't like the school before that either.
I'm starting to wonder if I'm ever going to like any school.
School isn't the problem. Academically I'm pretty okay. It's the environments.
It's how no matter what I do I'm a perpetual screw up.

Lately I've been contemplative, and I've been bitter.

What if I hadn't studied in LA for that summer.
What if I hadn't left SVSU.
What if what if what fucking if.

I'm in a good spot right now. Or so I've been thinking. I should be thrilled. But I am not thrilled.
I'm doing things all out of order and some days it feels like I'm doing them all wrong.
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[29 Apr 2007|11:27pm]
So we got 2 seven week old Golden Retriever puppies...Maya and Darla.

They're precious.

But they are little poop and pee MACHINES.

...they're super sweet and love to cuddle though...so I guess it's okay if they don't totally have control over their bodily functions just yet.

I love the little fuzz balls.
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I saw how the church is supposed to work. [24 Apr 2007|11:05pm]
Usually I don't enjoy sharing my emotionally induced tangents, because I end up deleting them later, but I really think everyone needs to hear what happened to me tonight, because it was so freaking amazing and unlike my life I'm still floored by it. This one is so unbelievable it will not get deleted.

I had to drive to Mt. Pleasant incredibly last minute tonight, and though I'm convinced I stayed on the right roads, I got super super lost on my way home.
I had less than 1/4 of a tank of gas, and eventually my cell phone died and it started to rain.
In The Middle of Nowhere Michigan, there is nothing but farmland and occasionally - a raccoon on the side of the road.
Also in The Middle of Nowehre Michigan, people apparently don't believe in gas stations or things remaining open past 9pm.
Every little hole in the wall store and resturant was closed and every church had an empty parking lot.
So I had to just suck it up and stop at a house, because with a dead cell phone battery I couldn't exactly call AAA, or find someone to Mapquest me out of the situation.

So, dressed in a knee length skirt and a spaghetti strap tank top, I got out, and walked through the cold rain up to the front door of the most well lit house I could find.

The sweetest old lady I have ever met in my entire life was on the other side, and she was Jesus to me.
(Her actual name is Mae, but her friends call her "Millie". For the remainder of this story, and probably my life, I'm just going to refer to her as my angel.)

She invited me in to dry off while she figured out directions, sat me in her kitchen and gave me a cookie.
It started to thunder, *note, I am TERRIFIED of thunderstorms*, and she said I could wait there until the rain let up.
So I stuck around for a few minutes and talked with her.

It turns out her late husband was a minister, and her only son is serving in Iraq.
I didn't hear much of this woman's story, but I was so caught up in everything that I'd forgotten about my car and cell phone issues altogether.
She stopped talking for a few minutes, wrote down directions to the closest gas station she knew would be open, and then directions to South 131 from there.

I got up to leave, and when she gave me a hug she slipped a $20 bill in to my purse, which was FANTASTIC because I later figured out I'd forgotten my credit card. My angel.

I found my car charger for my cell phone under my passanger seat when I got back in to my car, and my ride back to GR went super smooth with a partially full tank of gas, and a renewed faith.

I know that having almost no gas, a dead cell phone and being lost isn't the worst thing in the world, but being stranded is one of my biggest fears.
God totally looked out for me tonight, and it was so so freaking amazing.
I had to tell people.
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[23 Apr 2007|02:01am]
I don't want this to be taken as some type of "ohmygodihatemylife" entry, because it totally isn't.
I'm afraid it'll turn in to some sort of vent - disregard it if it does.
I'm doing fine - and I can honestly say that.

I'm still in a comfortable place geographically...I love living with Beth and BJ more every day.
I love Grand Rapids more and more every day it doesn't snow.
The only real drawback of this move is the 8+ hours of driving to and from Lansing I do every week.

For some reason I'm still just "down" lately.
It was pretty well hidden up until a couple days ago, occasionally Beth would ask if things were going alright, and I'd smile and convince her they were, but I found out this evening that she always knew differently (this is why Jesus gave me her).

I think part of the reason God brought me together with Beth and BJ is because I have the overwhelming need and desire to be needed and desired.

My absolute favorite part about living with them is that I feel useful. And I feel wanted. I like when I'm just 10 minutes late coming home from work, and Beth calls to check and make sure I'm alright. I like when she asks if I've done something last minute for lia sophia - I say it's been done for days - and she gets excited that I'm capable of organizing her life.

I feel taken care of here.
Last year some things went on with a friend that had me literally pouring everything I had on every level imaginable to help her [because I love her, and I would absolutely do it again], and I lost a lot of myself.
Here my spirituality is challenged by simple things...christian music playing in our house ALL the time, Beth and I singing along and harmonizing like we've sung together our whole lives...living with a youth minister...the youth kids.
Challenged, but absolutely taken care of.
I feel safe here.
I feel comfortable saying "I'm sad, and I want to cry", crying, and being held.
I've always had a lot of trouble being completely okay with that.

I think much of my "down"ness is that despite my comfort, I'm secretly lonely.
Not so secret anymore.
Beth has BJ [duh.], but other than a few young moms that have requested a babysitter, or people from the church that I hang out with - by default - with Beth and BJ, I don't really have anyone in GR yet.

Jennie came to church at KCC today, and I loved it. I loved spending the afternoon with her like we were still juniors in high school. Eating ice cream, spending more time outside in one afternoon than I normally do in 3 weeks time. I'm sad she's moving home from GR soon. I feel like this short month and a half of our overlapping residency is just a big tease.

I need to make friends here.
I know that I will...making friends, fortunately, has never been incredibly difficult for me.
It's just finding the time to essentially "put myself out there" and do it.
I'm so freaking busy with work at Disney that by the time I get back to Grand Rapids it's either too late for logical things such as campus ministry and community stuff, or I'm too tired to leave the house.

...pray for that, actually.

I don't know. Like I said, I don't mean to vent. I have so so so much to be thankful for right now, I really have no business venting about petty things.

But at any rate, thanks for listening ;)

Everyone else doing alright?
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[15 Apr 2007|02:20am]
I'm extremely comfortable.

And waiting for something catestrophic to happen.

Because right now is too good to be true.
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[10 Apr 2007|12:29am]
There's something surreal about the last few nights in a place you've called home.
Even if you only called it "home" for a little while - there's still just something unexplainable about it.
A certain spot on the couch that's "yours".
The distinct annoying sound the door buzzer makes when you've got a friend downstairs waiting to be let in.

It's hard to explain why I'm going to miss this place so much.

Great Lakes seems like just another big stupid mistake I made.
A lot like going to SVSU. Just a big stupid mistake.

But much like my big stupid Saginaw mistake - I'm walking away from this big stupid Lansing mistake with amazing friends.
Some are coming with me (and by that I mean I'm moving in with them) - but others are staying behind.
I know we'll still see each other semi often, because I still will be working here a few days a week.

But it's so ridiculous to think how attatched I am to certain people here.
It's an attatchment and a comfort I don't think I've ever felt so close before, even with my half-a-dozen changes of scenery.

I think we can all agree that I've made some pretty stupid decisions since high school.
And I can't take a single one of them back.
But even though I'm not super proud of them, if there's any pride at all, I don't regret them.

My decisions to change never seem like stupid ones at the time...but I don't have the greatest track record.
I really hope this decision isn't stupid too.
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[08 Apr 2007|08:40pm]
Boo and Baby hate each other.

Between the hissing and the growling and the unnecessary pouncing you'd think there'd be a break.

But there is not.

I'm so stressed that this cat situation isn't going to work and that Baby is going to have to move home.
I uh, I don't think I could deal with that.
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[06 Apr 2007|04:14pm]

I'm too ADD to sit and pack things.
Yesterday I thought I had a ton of motivation, and I did...for like 20 minutes.

As excited as I am to be moving in with Beth and BJ, I'm about 5 times more excited about the RIDICULOUSLY comfortable bed they furnished my room with.
I slept there for the first night on Wednesday, and I only slept for 4 hours but felt like I'd slept an entire day. That bed is from Jesus, I won't lie.

I'm moving to Grand Rapids at the end of this next week...which is over a month earlier than I'd planned. But it just seems like the best thing to do.
It's so difficult managing Beth's life and my own when we're in too such far cities.

I can already tell that driving to Disney in Lansing is going to make me want to shoot myself.
When I complain about it, which I will, please don't say "I told you so" - just tell me to shut up.
I know damn well it's going to be rough.

I'm excited for this move....now if I could only be excited to pack.
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[30 Mar 2007|07:27pm]
I'm getting ready for this "move to Grand Rapids" and I'm starting to get a little sentimental about it.
I don't remember being this upset when I left Saginaw.
Maybe it's because while I was there, I didn't make the most of it. I don't know.
There's just something about Lansing...everything being here, and the great people I've been with.

One of my roommates went through months of being bitchy and impossible - but now, just as I'm getting ready to uproot again, we're getting better. And the other...I'm going to have a crazyhard time being separated from.
I know moving in with Beth and BJ is the best decision, for so so many reasons.
It's just going to be a little tricky at first until I get into a normal routine. Same with anything new, I suppose.

GR is paying all of my tuition if I go with a minor in performing arts.
That means I have to do at least 2/3 of the shows, and keep 11 credits per year in performance training.
It's an extremely tempting (yet time consuming) offer, that I might take.
Though I don't know how I'd find time. It doesn't exactly go with my business major, either.
lia sophia with Beth keeps me extremely busy, and I'm going to be driving to Lansing to keep working at Disney. Chances are that most days I'm going to want to shoot myself in the face for staying at this stupid store...but it's been my life since my first month in Lansing.

It sounds dumb to everyone else, but for a long time I kindof felt like Disney was all I had. Once I got this job, I threw myself into it, worked my way to management, and now can't imagine ever leaving, no matter how ridiculous of a commute I have.
And it's not the company. If it were, I'd just transfer to the Grand Rapids store.
For such a long time when things were crazy and Great Lakes, with friends going through such difficult stuff, work was the only place I could get away from everything, or cry about how hard it was to watch my friends hurt, and get solid advice.

The people I work with are so amazing...I don't think I'll ever be able to find a comparable team anywhere.

I'm excited that Jenn and I are going to be so close again! Even if it's only for a little while.
We had dinner and spent some time hanging out the other night, and I realized I miss her like crazy!
It's nice to know that I have someone other than Beth & BJ in the city when I first get there, too.
Their married....they've kindof got a built-in best friend.

Ugghhhhh moving. Moving means packing, and the ultimate level of cleaning.
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[13 Mar 2007|01:54pm]
[ mood | awake ]

Alright, I miss and love the people who commented on my "is there anyone out there" entry, so I'll update =)
It might be long....it's been a while =)

I apologize to those who read the Xanga faithfully...it had to be deleted.
I had some problems with some douchebags (that's right, I said it) leaving inappropriate comments, so I switched my screen name on there all together, and now it's private. Unfortunately, private means "Xanga members only" - so if you guys want to sign up for one, just for the sake of reading/commenting, I'll be happy to friend you - just let me know what your name is =)

Let's see...updateage...

My classes have been kicking me in the face, they're mostly science and math...and you guys know me...I uh, suck at both.
So that's been rough.

The roommate situation has been interesting.
Some days really really fantastic, and others I want to kill them both.
It's been really bipolar, actually.
I'm moving to Grand Rapids soon...getting ready for that.

Still at Disney...and will be seemingly forever, because they own an amount of my soul comparable to that which Jesus owns.
I'm working as a personal assistant for my friend Beth, who sells Lia Sophia (think Mary Kay, only Jewlery) - and I love it. I get paid ridiculously well to hang out with her and to type and organize stuff. It's fantastic.
I'm also working at Menards...I'm pretty sure you all know what that is, but if not, it's like a huge Home Depot type place.
I have a weird love for hardware stores...which is odd considering how girly I am...so it's been pretty nice.
They pay me $10.60/hr to ring up lumber and power tools for men who are old and dirty and more interested in my chest, and whether or not I'm over 18 than they are their building projects.
For $10.60/hr, I can prostitute myself through retail, I'm not above that.

None right now, and I'm surprisingly content.
I made the mistake of dating my boss (never, ever do that) and we broke up.
We were together for almost 3 months, and broke up last Friday. He is Mormon...I am not. And Missionary Dating isn't something I'm interested in.
Our recent break up has made certain shifts challenging.
It was a learning experience, I can tell you that much.

I'm good, yo.
I broke my foot, and aquired a real bad sprain to my left knee at the beginning of February, which caused me to drop my dance classes at LCC.
I was bummed about it, but now that I'm almost completely healed, I don't actually want to go back.
Otherwise, I'm perfectly healthy.

The Baby moved in to my apartment with me a few weeks ago, and I adore having my little princess kitten here with me. So much love. So tiny, so naive. I love her.
My brother got out of jail in early February - so he's been home, driving my parents insane...heh.

I've had a pretty rollercoaster semester in terms of emotions. But at the end of the day, most things are well,
and I'm surrounded by amazing people that I love, and am always reminded they love me.

And you guys are.......?

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Considering my last post was from the end of August... [10 Mar 2007|05:13am]
Does anyone use Livejournal anymore?

I'm not even sure what compelled me to log-in in the first place.
To be perfectly honest, I was mostly just curious if my account had been inactive long enough to be shut down.

If people still use it, I'll consider an update.
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